Life, or Something Like It

I've got a feeling this is going to be another random ramble.

There have been goings-on in the world at large and in my personal world that I've wanted to write about.
The plane crash of a great number of Poland's officials for instance. The ash cloud hanging over Europe after a volcano erupted in Iceland. People I talk to. Things I'm reading about. 

In the end, I didn't write about any of these things. They mattered, I followed the news, read more about things that interested me, however didn't feel I had enough to say about any of these things to write an opinion piece about them. A general recap definitely, however a well-researched and thought-through story, argument, anything - no.

Life is going on. It's going well. I'm doing well. Coming to terms with several things, learning new things about myself, learning new things about life. I'm also starting to realise that some people I thought of as good friends maybe aren't such good friends. And figuring out that others are better friends than the ones I thought of as really good friends. We've just lost touch, it seems. That's what happens when you move to the other side of the world. I've been thinking about how I interact with my friends. Wondering why these people are important to me and if I'm important to them. Maybe they're just busy with their own lives, maybe I am too, maybe we just don't really have anything new to share and so we don't. Maybe we know each other well enough that we don't always need to share everything. And maybe they were the kinds of people who are friends for a reason or a season but not for a lifetime. It's interesting how there are things I want to share with them, tell them, and then when we do talk, I don't share. We laugh and joke and catch up on how life is going for the other, however the things that really bother me - I don't talk to them about those things.

I've been talking to other people about those things. Friends, yes, and in some cases long-time friends or people I consider almost family, but not people I thought of as "best friends" I share everything with. So I'm re-evaluating my life, my friends, my priorities. And while I've been stuck inside my own head, I haven't really wanted to write about other things, things more important than my own life. I hope I'll get back to that soon, to writing with gusto, to feeling like I've really got something important to say that I want to share with others. Right now, basically, I'm doing a lot of thinking, a WHOLE lot of reading, and I'm thankful for the friends who ARE there, as well as the ones who aren't as prevalent in my life right now yet are still important to me. The experiences we shared and the fun times we had will not be lost or forgotten and I'll cherish my friends, be they reason / season or lifetime friends. They were friends, after all!